Sunday 7 March 2021

My world is shattered

 Maybe not the right place to do this but my blog is about me. All facets of my life and in the past two weeks my life has been shattered and changed forever. On February 21, the love of my life and best friend, my husband died of a sudden heart attack. It has taken my world and turned it upside down. My daughter has been with me since that day.

I know it will take time and the days ahead will be long. I have many family and friends that are there with a hug, food or whatever we may need. I am not sure what the future holds  but I am hoping that with faith, hope and love we will make it.

I also know that keeping busy is best. I have not been able to attempt anything sewing or quilting wise. I have put  labels on two quilts for two special people who helped us with the funeral preparations.  My hubby understood my love of fabric and thread and even encouraged my passion. So with that in mind, I know he would want me to carry on....so many projects to finish. I know the day will come when my heart doesn't hurt so much, that bright fabrics and fun looking quilts will be my medicine. But also joining in with my friend Kathy for slow stitching Sunday and reading all your blog posts will help me to not feel alone and encourage me to get busy quilting!


13 comments:

  1. Oh my friend my heart hurts for you so much. I think about you every day and hope you are doing okay. Glad you found some things to put stitches in and absolutely Ted would want you to carry on. It's hard to fathom how to carry on after such a huge and sudden loss and yet somehow humans manage to do so. Sending you lots of love!

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  2. Deanna this is such a huge loss for anyone. He would want you to keep on shining your light, like he shone his. You're not alone in this loss, as losing Teddy is something felt in the lives of everyone he met. Hold on to the good times, but don't forget to take care of yourself. It's ok to not be ok right now, just keep moving forward in little steps. You've got a whole community you can reach out for if you need help, or just someone to talk. <3 your sewing projects will be there for you when you're ready.

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  3. Deanna this is such a huge loss for anyone. He would want you to keep on shining your light, like he shone his. You're not alone in this loss, as losing Teddy is something felt in the lives of everyone he met. Hold on to the good times, but don't forget to take care of yourself. It's ok to not be ok right now, just keep moving forward in little steps. You've got a whole community you can reach out for if you need help, or just someone to talk. <3 your sewing projects will be there for you when you're ready.

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  4. So sorry for your loss. There are really no words anyone can say! Will pray you have the strength to get through each day, and carry on.

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  5. Hello Deanna, this is Julie from the knitting group. I heard about your terrible loss from Linda and you have been in my thoughts every day since. I am glad you are surrounded by your family during this difficult time. Give yourself time to heal. I can't wait to hear you laugh and see your beautiful smile again. Take care.

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  6. Oh I’m so very sorry. I will pray for your broken heart.

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  7. I am deeply saddened to read of your darling husband's passing. There are no words really to lessen your grief, anguish and sadness. It is lovely to read that your daughter and your friends and community have gathered around you to comfort and help you during this impossible time. May they all help you at this impossible time. How beautiful is the photo of you and your husband with the sun shining behind you reflecting lovely light on you both. The love and contentment you had with each other is there for the world to see. Thinking of you at this horrible time. Please take care. Xx

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  8. Oh, I'm so sorry to read of the loss of your hubby, such a shame for you and the family. Sending condolences and a cyber hug across the sea. Guess you can only take one day at a time, and think back in all the happy times you shared together.

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  9. I pray that you find comfort in the words of comfort offered here. The ultimate sadness! You are spot on with staying busy on your projects. Blessings to you.

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  10. I am sorry for your loss. Losing your life partner so unexpectedly. Just knowing they are gone in person, never forget they are always in your heart and with you, just in a different way. You are loved and we send you prayers of comfort and love.

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  11. Bless you during this adjustment period. I am sending thoughts and prayers for coping with this major life change. I can understand how hard it is for you. I love my husband deeply as well and don't know what I would do without him. This is your process to adjust: no timeline, nobody telling you how you should feel or what you should do. Take time for yourself.

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  12. This is absolutely the right place to share your feelings if it feels right to you and helps you not feel so alone. My heart goes out to you Deanna as you make your way in this new world without the love of your life. May you be surrounded by much love and support for as long as you need it. They say that you reap what you sow. Well Deanna you have definitely invested so much in terms of friendship and caring for others that now is your turn to reap much comfort and love in return. May the days ahead help you to heal along the grieving journey. Many virtual hugs being sent your way.

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    1. I have left a trail of friends in the different places we have lived. It is so nice to know they still think of me and my family Thanks Sharon

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